The bells of joy are ringing loud at the Bergler home!! We are catching Christmas just in the nick of time and I’m so unbelievably grateful to be home. This is probably my favorite sight from the past two weeks….
I had those puppies ordered the minute I knew we were going to Africa, and oh the tears that flowed as I hung them at long, long last. But more on that later….here are some other favorites…
Two sweet littles snuggled in their room for the first time…be still my heart.
The snow, oh my word they LOVE the snow—who would have thought?!?
And probably the most poignant was coming in the house that first night and Sol (who was the only one awake!) walking through their room and all around upstairs just exclaiming over and over, “Oh Wow! Dad, look it—oh wow!” Home, finally home.
After two weeks now back on US soil, we are all settling in and finding our way….I will be honest and say it has not been easy, not by a longshot. Frankly, week one was unfortunately similar to your classic horror film….close your eyes and just imagine…after being quickly whisked home from the airport Friday night and arriving to a warm house, with welcome banners, oodles of goodies and a refrigerator and freezer completely STOCKED full of hearty goodness by loving and generous friends, Saturday dawned brilliantly with fresh inches of snow and a happy family of six hunkered down, enjoying a little sledding, long naps and continued togetherness….the only hint you have of the terror ahead is the foreboding music in the background that begins as they go to sleep on Sunday night. Monday morning, it hits…the wheels come off….Brian returns to work, Zach and Mason return to school….we are down to three….the endless questions begin, most of which I can’t understand….naps come to a screeching halt….there is laundry for miles….there are crying jags (mostly mine)….and children up in the night….Mason comes home from school sick on Tuesday…there are bills to pay and mail to sort….oh and by the way you still own a business and guess what? It’s Christmastime!!….LIFE settles in and we are a M.E.S.S….completely undone.…and you wonder as the shower curtain is pulled back and the knife comes down “how could she not see this coming?” (Sidenote: Brian thinks this is a bit of a dramatic analogy, but I’m sticking with it…)
However, things have improved exponentially since week one….some good sleep and a little routine go a long way! I did feel completely blindsided by that first week I must say. I really thought we had worked through most of the ‘adjustments’ during our time in Africa. But hello…this new reality is quite different from what we were experiencing together while traveling. As I hung those stockings, I wept once again…I felt ashamed of having longed for something so desperately and then being completely exasperated by its arrival. Oh how I continue to be confronted by my weaknesses…my selfishness, my overconfidence, my deep distaste for needing help…just my plain old stinking pride. It’s not pretty, but nothing like having a mirror held up by two sweet littles who need their mom to pull it together!! They are a reflection of God’s mercies to me….new every morning….fresh and forgiving. The tide has turned and time is now our friend…each day brings further progress, more words, deeper patience and bigger love.
I woke this morning thinking about how God did not send His son to this world to make things easy. He was sent so that we may have LIFE and have it more ABUNDANTLY. And if there is one thing I can say about today, Christmas Eve 2013, it’s that LIFE is ABUNDANT for the Bergler Six….crazy, fun, joyful, hard, beautiful abundant life. We hope and pray the same for you and your family this Christmas and through the coming year.